Dreams [and the 800th post]

I just realized I have reached my 800th post.

yup. congrats to you reader, you're reading the 800th post on my blog =)


anywayz, to those people who have been messaging me or asking me about how I can do what I can do in my dreams (i.e. my house on the hill etc.)

I do not know.

really. all I know is that from young, I could focus my mind to think of something before I fall asleep, and I will appear in that particular thought.

but I can only focus my mind to think of peaceful stuff before I fall asleep or I obviously won't be able to fall asleep.

(i.e. focusing my mind to think of failure of examination would keep me awake all night)

but there are times when things are at the back of my mind and would not go away.... and sometimes, it surfaces in my dreams also...

like for example, when I watched Ju-Onn, I was really really freaked out and scared.... I kept seeing things in the dark even...
so when i finally fell asleep, Ju-Onn visited me in my dreams.

haha. not funny. it is not laughable to have that little boy appearing in your beautiful dream.

So at that time, I realized I could force myself to focus, even in my dreams (kind of like pinching yourself, but you wont wake up type of feeling), and I could alter the reality in my dream to something I would like to see.

thus, that little boy appearing got mixed with Sadako and started growing hair. He got strangled in his own hair and fell into a bucket of water. All his "powder" came off and he became a pretty cute little boy who stayed with me in my house playing hide and seek for like a few days...

you see, even time doesnt measure up in dreams.

I just never know when I might wake up.

most of the time, I don't want to.

the longest time I ever spent was 3 months in a dream. believe it or not, I learnt my whole geometry chapter overnight.
(remember adjacent and opposing angles, sine cosine and hypotenuse? yup. that sec 3 chapter.)

maybe it was because I liked that topic so much I even came up with the formulas in my dreams.




but, there are times when I can't control the dream.

those dreams are the dreams which I do not know (or believe) I am dreaming.

it can be because I am anticipating an examination failure or a death of a person close to me, that when the dream knocks on my door, I found myself unable to seperate illusion from reality.

and there are extremely rare times, when you're just helpless against the onslaught of the merciless dream... just because you care too much for the people in your dream.

i can change the situation, but i can't change the people...

its like.... hmmm.... a superhuman being, able to do everything except go against his own self and the people around him...



finally, dreams are tiring things...
mostly, I just sleep, even when I know I'm in the house on the hill, I just sleep.


If I even bother to wake up in my dream, I know its going to be a sleepy lecture the next day.